facking MENTAL!!!!

so afew days ago i played a $11 tourny qualifier with 70 players in which top 3 qualified for the $215 $300k gtd on partypoker.
iv watched Jonesy and Brent play multis all the time and seen them cash good, n just once i wanted this experience. if it wasnt for them 2 id probably be asleep right now
i managed to qualify for the 300k gtd on wednesday and since then have been so excited for the tournament, not because i ever imagined i could do well, but bcause of the experience in playing in a £100 buyin.

the tournament started at 5.45 and i decided to move upto my room so i could concentrate with just my music on. 1440 entered with top prize of $60k available for the winner. i started ok winning sum small hands with people unable to lay down A high. i then tilted off half my stak, 1st trying to outpot a guy on a FD, in which he still called n hit, then the very next hand trying to take sum1 off top pair with my AQ.
i calmed down and doubled up shortly after with AJ suited on a Q10x flop 4 diamond total. i hit my diamond and was back to the starting stack.
to be honest from here to 250 left i dont remember much of it. i was on 15k with average about 26k when i hit JJ. i had planned to play ultra tight and fold verything because $390 for 200th was a massive increase to my BR of $42. i shipped all in anyway and was called by AQ, a 89J board doubled me to 30k, 2 hands later i hit AA and doubled up again through chip leader 88. by now i had double the average and played tight until there were 200 left, steeling blinds on button etc and was on about 65k when i reached the money.
i kept grinding n players fell quickly once every1 made the money. by brother had been watching me for an hour now and playing when i needed the toilet, probably every 30 mins cs i ws shitting the concept of a few hundred pounds.
i managed to wittle down to the last 20 with $1500 in the pocket. from here to the final table is again, a bit of a blur. players fell now n again until there were 13 left and i was faced with the concept of making the final table in the biggest tournament of my life.
big holla to all my mates who were watching and giving ultimate support. cal, brent, hes, ferg, dewar... my round for sure cheers boys
i managed to get to chip leader on my table with a 600k stack and blinds at 30/60k. i reached final table about 6th in chips and confident i could do well.
with 8 left and completely card dead i went all in fairly late with AQc, the SB reraised all in and i was thinkin this is it. BB pondered for a while and folded and the SB flips 99. i had won with 99 twice that night in coin tosses so was sure this was it for me. the flop came 983, 1 club and i was devestated, with my bro n mum behind me watching and a moan when the 9 came down. the turn brought another club and with my head in hands i was screaming CLUB 1 TIME!!!!
the river brings a fuckin club and im way back in it, would have been out with $4200 otherwise. (4.5% to win that hand after the flop)
eventaully we got down to 4 and with the blinds so big i had t start making a move. i was gna push with A8 after min bet by button but just called and he took down pot with 107 after hitting 10 on river vs me n bb, decent pot considering the blinds. the next hand he min bet again and i elected to push with A6. e flipped K9 and a J on turn game him the straight and sent me out.
i was absolutely extatic to take the $16,350 4th place which will pay for my gap yr n put sum cash in my pocket 4 clothes and uni. 7 hours of hard graft and 3 years of poker had paid off in 1 night....unbelievable
off out with family tonight to celebrate, ontop of the world right now.
apologies for the long post but, had to be done
Current BR: $16,392.90, incredible